By Rob Cullivan
The Gresham Outlook, June 17, 2008
Corrine Hoffard remembers the last time she was arrested, for possession of a controlled substance, back in 2005.
High on crystal methamphetamine, she was wandering a Northeast Portland neighborhood when someone called the police.
I guess because I was looking mighty suspicious, she says with a chuckle.
She even says she was calling friends on her cell phone at the time, begging them to pick her up because she felt she was going crazy and might do something stupid. But the cops got her first, and as she tells it now, that's a good thing.
Its insanity, she says of doing meth. One of my friends calls it The Monster. He said: Sounds like The Monster got a hold of you.
Hoffard, 29, who now lives in Southeast Portland, has slain The Monster, and chuckles a lot about her past, which is a checkerboard of drug abuse, homelessness, recovery and relapse, crime and punishment. But she may laugh so easily now because her future has become so much brighter.
Following her 2005 arrest, she also was convicted of first-degree burglary, and sentenced to three years probation. But this story has a happy ending. The former self-described pot-smoker, crack cocaine dealer and meth user has been sober for three years, and hopes to attend Concordia University in the fall to study social work.
Friday the 13th last week may have been unlucky for some, but not for Hoffard, a mother of four who was awarded an associates degree in Applied Science in Mental Health and Human Services from Mt. Hood Community College that day during its 2008 commencement ceremony. She earned a 4.0 average and was named one of her class valedictorians.
The same day she graduated Mt. Hood, her probation on the 2005 burglary conviction ended. Hoffard used her time wisely, setting her path straight and benefiting from treatment programs as well as housing and educational opportunities she was given through a variety of area agencies as well as Mt. Hood.
Probation is easy when you do what you're supposed to do, Hoffard says with a chuckle.
Hoffard's Multnomah County probation officer, Javelin Hardy, was in the audience at Mt. Hood to watch her client walk across the stage and accept her diploma.
Hardy says it was particularly moving event because officers like her can get discouraged by those clients who seem to be forever caught in the criminal justice system through their own bad choices. Hoffard, however, is one of those clients who make all the hard work worthwhile.
I'm basically here to speak to somebody's life and tell them there's something better to do than committing illegal acts and leading a criminal life, Hardy says. She has moved on. Its just so good to see somebody in that place in their life.
Hardy says that when she first met Hoffard, she noted that the young, pregnant woman was calmly dealing with her three small children.
She handled a chaotic situation as if it were nothing, Hardy says, adding that she sensed this mother had a strength that would help her overcome her past mistakes.
She was just about in a place in her life where she was open to growth and change.
Hoffard, in turn, credits Hardy for having faith in her.
She's great. I know she wants what's best for me and her other clients.
Unlike many folks who've fallen into this or that ditch in life, Hoffard is remarkably shorn of both self-pity as well as the desire to blame others for what happened to her. When asked why she began selling crack cocaine in high school, she has a simple answer: Money.
I never did that drug. I figured I could sell what I don't do.
She got pregnant when she was 17, and the father of her first child was murdered three years later. The case has never been solved, she says.
Yet, despite her sometimes tragic past, Hoffard says she now realizes that she's always been gifted with tremendous energy, she just needed to use it for the good.
I'm sure I was a good criminal, she says with a laugh. But Ill go a whole lot farther doing something positive.
She adds that she's grateful to the numerous people who've helped her along the way, from officials with the county's Family Services Unit as well as friends and family and other supporters.
I just want to thank them for believing in me and supporting me with my choices and goals.
Hoffard says that people in similar situations, whether homeless, addicted or trying to escape the criminal life, should look to her life as an example of what can happen if you replace despair with hope.
I know more things are possible. That's what I want other people to know.